I am T – 2 days till I turn 36. I know, I don’t believe it either and I’ve seen my birth certificate. There are days when I feel 56 and others when I feel 16. I am somewhere in between on the rest of the days.
When I look back on the last 36 years I wonder how I got where I am. I am very blessed and lucky to have the family and friends that I have. I have a roof over my head, a car to drive, food in the fridge (when I actually go to the grocery store that is…) and 2 kitties that I adore!…and they tolerate me.
I also feel like I’m missing so much. 20 years ago, if you asked me where I would be in life in 20 years, I wouldn’t have said Spokane, living in my grandpas house, single with 2 cats. I would have said, somewhere in Oregon or California, married with a couple kids, and let’s be honest…at least 2 cats 🙂
Don’t get me wrong, I love my cats! I am thankful for my house! And as small and boring as it can be, Spokane is home because my family is here! Just feel like I’m missing some key things that I thought I would have by now. Maybe I’m not ready, maybe he isn’t ready, maybe we are ready and haven’t met, maybe he is already in my life. I have no stinking clue and THAT is why it bothers me. I just want to know! I miss my best friend and I don’t even know if I know him yet. How is that possible?
Life is hard! Life is awesome! Relationships are hard and also so awesome!
Really all I wanted to say with this is, I am doing my best to be ok with being a single lady with 2 cats at age 36. Life isn’t perfect, but life is good. I say that a lot to myself, and I want to say it to you too! If you are struggling, write, draw, sing, dance…whatever it is that helps you process your thoughts and feelings. I never really know if I make sense to anyone, I usually don’t even make sense to myself, but writing helps me to get it out.